Grindr-Idle, New Bigot

Grindr is becoming a source of social anxiety. I feel beholden to the pushier guys, flattered initially but afterward stuck whether to fuck or decline them, like in passing up sex opportunities I'm not living to the fullest or being ungrateful, a cock tease etcetera. You can't fuck all the time (actually guys for whom all leisure time is dictated by grindr are testament to the contrary, and I know they're out there). 

For example today, I've got a list of dryish errands I've thus far shirked for grindr idle. I'm nowhere nearer that delicious sense of accomplishment I know I'll have if I just pulled finger. The day progresses and I may as well have stayed in bed, unstamped life-admin collecting dust, house suffering silently in a week's worth of grimes, library books accruing fines. Argh!

 My stall consists of agonising over having just told HotFun I can't make it to his this afternoon, not being able to justify the diversion or even rouse enough interest. He was just too easy. There's also a gentleman whose delectable profile pic has the disclaiming caption 'into str8 acting fit lads, don't be a cliche'. 

Are you fucking kidding me? You fucking wannabe jock meat head, you're the goddamn cliche! 

Which is what I should've said to him but didn't. That kind of hating on the typically flamboyant homosexual is nonsensical to me. It exhibits an ignorance of gender functioning I wouldn't expect from a fellow gay man, but then I guess that's idealistic. And what is it that's so repugnant about an effeminate man? So far as I see, the repulsion stems from Man embodying traits and behaviours classically categorised with Woman. Her position in society being inferior to man's, this is a transgression of his primary subject-hood, an absurd and meaningless sacrificing of his authorial coordinate, and the ideological event generating said-disgust. 

If the idea of a man in drag makes you feel uncomfortable, being an overt incarnation of the effeminate man, you may unconsciously hold the societal primacy of man over woman in some varied esteem, even in 2014. 

Progress isn't linear. 

But I suppose if you don't find it sexually attractive, a forum like grindr that elides so much requires abbreviated and disembodied likes/dislikes, not having access to the consummate person. 

So am I saying anyone not into fem guys is a bigot? Of course not. But isn't that curious, I'm not into overly effeminate men either. So how does sexuality translate politically, if it does?

I like daddies. Is that a political stance? 

It is if you work out a rough Freudian-esque science of sex as a synthesis of my life story to date, a wondrous and spontaneous affirmation of where I've been and where I'd like to go. But that's an involved process not recommended to everyone and anyone, maybe just those slightly sex-obsessed looking to elevate their basest drives to the soaring scale of myth.